It happened, before Vivekananda went to America and became a world-famous figure.
He was staying in Jaipur Maharaja’s palace. The Maharaja was a lover of Vivekananda and Ramakrishna. As maharajas go, when Vivekananda came to stay in his palace he made a great festival out of it, and he called prostitutes to dance and sing in reception.
Maharaja completely forgot that to receive a Sage with the singing of prostitutes and dancing of prostitutes doesn’t suit. But he couldn’t know anything else. He always knew that when you have to receive somebody, drinking, dancing has to be done.
When Vivekananda saw the prostitute, he simply locked his room and wouldn’t come out of it.
The Maharaja came and asked his forgiveness. He said, ‘We don’t know. We have never received any sannyasin (A Sanskrit word for a sage who has renounced the world). We always receive kings, so we know the ways. So we are sorry, but now it will be too much insulting, because this is the greatest prostitute in the country – and very costly. And we have paid, and to say her to move and go will be insulting to her, and if you don’t come she will feel very much hurt. So please come out.”
He was very angry, and said, “No”.
Suddenly the prostitute started singing without him, and she sang a song of a saint. The song was very beautiful. The song says that “I know that I am not worthy of you, but you could have been a little more compassionate. I am dirt on the road; that I know. But you need not be so antagonistic to me. I am nobody – ignorant, a sinner. But you are a saint – why are you afraid of me?”
It is said Vivekananda heard the song from his room. The prostitute was weeping and singing and he felt the whole situation of what he is doing. It is immature, childish. Why he is afraid? Fear exists only if you are attracted.
What is the fear? Indifference comes without any antagonism.
He opened the door: he couldn’t contain himself; he was defeated by the prostitute. The prostitute became victorious; he had to come out. He came and he sat, and he wrote in his diary that “A new revelation has been given to me by the divine. I was afraid… must be some lust within me. That’s why I was afraid. But the woman defeated me completely, and I have never seen such a pure soul. The tears were so innocent and the singing and the dancing were so holy that I would have missed. And sitting near her, for the first time I became aware that it is not a question that is there outside; it is a question what is inside.”
He transcended. That prostitute helped him to transcend. This is a miracle. Ramakrishna couldn’t help and a prostitute helped him. So nobody knows from where the help will come. Nobody knows what is evil and what is good. Who can decide? Mind is impotent and helpless. So don’t take any attitude: that is the meaning of being indifferent.